Friday. Finally. I'm ready for it to be here.
Last night, I went to WW. I gained .25 lbs.
It's time to re-focus folks.
I have been so inconsistent with my diet. Here's the pattern: I do great for a week or two and lose a couple of pounds. Then, I throw it all out the window for a few weeks and screw up everything I just worked to do. Next thing I know, 2 years has passed along with 2 years of paying for WW, and I am at the same weight as when I started. I would seriously hate to see how much weight I would gain if I didn't run and workout! Most people say, "OMG, all that running you do! You should be able to eat what you want!" Yeah, you'd think so. But, I seem to remember a little something from Economics 101 called the "Law of Diminishing Returns". Funny how you do end up using this stuff in real life after all, isn't it?
So I need to make a decision.
Either get back to eating right (not dieting), or just saying "screw it" and eat whatever the hell I want. Seriously. No grey area. No in-between. One or the other, because I am tired of this cycle of "Woohoo, I lost 3 lbs", followed by the horrible guilt of eating things I know will sabotage my diet. I seem to constantly go back and forth between the two. It's not that I can't eat the bad foods at all. I can. I just have to get back to eating them in moderation and balancing them with the healthy stuff in between. I guess it just bugs me, because when I was on WW before, it seemed so easy. I ate what I was supposed to and the weight came off. Sure I had a chocolate bar or a Coke mixed in there every so often, but I wouldn't go too crazy with it. I would balance it out with more veggies at dinner or earn more activity points. So why does this seem so hard now? I know how I feel when I gain weight and I know how unhappy I am when I move up a size....so, I know what decision I need to make. Eat right. I just need someone to tell that to the part of the brain that allows me to reason with myself. The part that says "It's okay, a couple of chocolate chip cookies won't hurt" followed by, "While you're at it, wash it down with a REAL Coke". :-)
So anyway, I did workout last night. 25 minutes of Si6, followed by 25 minutes on the treadmill, followed by 40 minutes of Marketing reading. (Damn those Marketing chapters are long!)