Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Early morning loop...sort of

Yesterday morning, I did something I usually don't do. I ran the morning after running the previous evening. I usually give myself close to 24 hours to rest and recover...but it was that or try to squeeze in another evening dreadmill run between sweeping and mopping and folding and ironing the kiddo's laundry. Since I prefer to have at least a little downtown in the evenings, running in the morning sounded much more appealing. Well, at least it did the night before! By the morning, I was feeling tired and not really ready to run a loop.

I think part of it had to do with the mommy guilt I was feeling. I had worked late the evening before and didn't have as much time with the kiddo as I would have liked. Then, running in the morning meant that I wouldn't see the kiddo until the evening...this was silly, because most of the time the kiddo is sleeping when I leave for work anyway. Plus, I was out of town all last week and still feel a little guilty about that. Blah, blah...I over analyze these things too much! I thought that maybe it would be better to get up early and run on the treadmill in the mornings from now on. At least that way, if the kiddo wakes up early, I would at least be there to give her a morning kiss. Then again, I run at the park because it's so much more therapeutic than the treadmill. It helps me keep my sanity, which in the long run is a good thing for the kiddo too!

So my question of the day is this - do men get cases of "Daddy Guilt" like we women do? Somehow, I don't think so. I always hear women at work talking about how they'd like to spend more time with their kiddos instead of at work. However, I don't know that I have ever heard that from the men. Sorry for going off on a tangent...let's get back to the running!

When I arrived at the park, I was surprised to see so many cars. I had to park a little further from the Tennis Center than normal. I was still feeling that "I don't feel like running vibe". Usually, I push these thoughts out of my mind and follow Nike's advice and "just do it". But not this time. This time I allowed those thoughts to linger. I began my run slowly. Maybe it was my negative attitude, but I felt heavy and it seemed like I could not get my breathing right. After about a 1/2 mile I took a walk break. By 12 minutes, I decided to turn around and head back in the direction I came from. The thought of doing the full loop just didn't seem like fun and I just decided I wasn't going to do it. Plain and simple. So, I ran for a total of 24 minutes. I only needed to run for 30 minutes, so I am not beating myself up about being a quitter. I was just having a crappy run. I will get over it by Thursday and have an awesome run.

By the way, Vic, I did look for you this morning! I didn't see you, but I did see Lisa Foronda jogging her morning loop.

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Not even going to bother today!

Run long & Livestrong!


Vic said...

I really think I saw Lisa a couple of weeks ago. I hope I see her again soon.

I was out of there by around 7:15. What time did you get there? We're bound to catch each other one of these days.

TX Runner Girl said...

Vic, I was there around 6 am (this varies a little each day). But, I was probably heading out to my car to go to work by 7:15.

mommyguilt said...

Hey Runner Mama!

Thanks for stopping by! Mommy Guilt gets the best of us....but run whenever. From the looks of it, your Little's gonna be Little for a long time. Sometimes my kids give me grief for the mommy guilt I feel ("Geez Mom, it's not like you're never going to see us again").

Erin said...

Thanks for hitting my site! I am so jealous...I used to run, before I had my son. I miss it terribly but have no time, it seems. But I guess you have to make time. So that part is my fault, I suppose.

The most I've ever run was a 1/2 marathon about 3 years but painful.

Oh, and the mommy guilt -- I hear ya. I don't think a day goes by when I don't feel a pang of it here and there.

Keep running and good luck!

Donna said...

I have started running at 8am after I drop them off and before I head to work. It's hot at that time and I guess I'm fortunate that I can set my hours whenever I want to, but yes that guilt has been my excuse for the past 5 years as to why I wasn't exercising.

I'm learning if we work out and feel better, we're usually in a better mood and have more energy to play with them. So hang in there :)

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