Yesterday morning, I did something I usually don't do. I ran the morning after running the previous evening. I usually give myself close to 24 hours to rest and recover...but it was that or try to squeeze in another evening dreadmill run between sweeping and mopping and folding and ironing the kiddo's laundry. Since I prefer to have at least a little downtown in the evenings, running in the morning sounded much more appealing. Well, at least it did the night before! By the morning, I was feeling tired and not really ready to run a loop.
I think part of it had to do with the mommy guilt I was feeling. I had worked late the evening before and didn't have as much time with the kiddo as I would have liked. Then, running in the morning meant that I wouldn't see the kiddo until the evening...this was silly, because most of the time the kiddo is sleeping when I leave for work anyway. Plus, I was out of town all last week and still feel a little guilty about that. Blah, blah...I over analyze these things too much! I thought that maybe it would be better to get up early and run on the treadmill in the mornings from now on. At least that way, if the kiddo wakes up early, I would at least be there to give her a morning kiss. Then again, I run at the park because it's so much more therapeutic than the treadmill. It helps me keep my sanity, which in the long run is a good thing for the kiddo too!
So my question of the day is this - do men get cases of "Daddy Guilt" like we women do? Somehow, I don't think so. I always hear women at work talking about how they'd like to spend more time with their kiddos instead of at work. However, I don't know that I have ever heard that from the men. Sorry for going off on a tangent...let's get back to the running!
When I arrived at the park, I was surprised to see so many cars. I had to park a little further from the Tennis Center than normal. I was still feeling that "I don't feel like running vibe". Usually, I push these thoughts out of my mind and follow Nike's advice and "just do it". But not this time. This time I allowed those thoughts to linger. I began my run slowly. Maybe it was my negative attitude, but I felt heavy and it seemed like I could not get my breathing right. After about a 1/2 mile I took a walk break. By 12 minutes, I decided to turn around and head back in the direction I came from. The thought of doing the full loop just didn't seem like fun and I just decided I wasn't going to do it. Plain and simple. So, I ran for a total of 24 minutes. I only needed to run for 30 minutes, so I am not beating myself up about being a quitter. I was just having a crappy run. I will get over it by Thursday and have an awesome run.
By the way, Vic, I did look for you this morning! I didn't see you, but I did see Lisa Foronda jogging her morning loop.
Not even going to bother today!
Run long & Livestrong!